Journal: May 20, 2021

So the first day back from the vacation consisted of 12.5 hours of work (there was a 2.5 hour Zoom call in there, which really makes it seem longer!) However, days two and three back from work are my days off (and yes, I will be working, but still!) It could be worse. What I missed most about the day was having the opportunity to do Morning Prayer with my online group (see 2.5 hour Zoom call if you’re wondering where I was.) That has turned into a very special time of day for me. It seems that sometimes I have something to say and other days… not so much, but… we prayed together and that is a good thing. God makes great even our most feeble attempts!

While on the vaca, I finished reading the book Anxious People by Fredrik Backman. I give it โญ๏ธโญ๏ธโญ๏ธโญ๏ธโญ๏ธ. Loved this book. There are several quotes I could share (and will in some upcoming sermons), but the one that made me laugh out loud (causing the person next to me on the plane to be concerned for the next hour or so) involved the goose….

You mustn’t throw stones at birds. We all agree on that. Except maybe swans, because swans can actually be passive-aggressive little bastards. But apart from swans, you mustn’t throw stones at birds. And you mustn’t tell lies. Unless… well, sometimes you have to, of course, like when your children ask: “Why does it smell like chocolate in here? ARE YOU EATING CHOCOLATE?” but you definitely mustn’t…

When you actually type out the word “mustn’t” you really do wonder how that word truly exists!

… steal or kill, we can agree on that.

It goes on from there and you eventually fall into the rhythm and style. The last 20-30 pages of this one are worth reading more than once, just to make sure you put it all together. The author also wrote, A Man Called One. That one is next, following the current read, Project Hail Mary (sci-fi) and One Hundred Years of Solitude (not sci-fi).

Thought for the day: Enjoy interruptions. They are really God trying to get you off your butt to do what it is you are supposed to be doing.

Journal: May 19, 2021

As has been pointed out, online journaling may not be all that wise, seeing as how yesterday I posted about spending ten minutes in an airport bathroom stall just so I wouldn’t have to wear my mask, but… here we find ourselves.

The Queen at rest…

This is the last day of my two week vacation and the Queen and I have spent it together doing just about what you see her doing here. Besides, she was laying in my lap and it would have been quite rude of me to disturb her. Yesterday, after I picked her up, she was a hissing spitting alley cat, but she has remembered that I am her faithful servant, forgiven me, and is once again deigning to allow me to scoop her poop (which has no stink… naturally.)

I have had some guilt about not working today and responding to emails, but I have managed to overcome those feelings with a nap of my own. Interesting that we need vacations, take vacations, and feel guilty for not working on vacations. I keep reminding myself that St. Matthew’s survived 120 some odd years without me and they’ll be just fine whether I’m gone for another a day or forever. Yet, I enjoy them and I enjoy being their priest, so perhaps it’s not so much me feeling guilty as it is me ready to get back in the mix doing the work…. it is a good work. Even so, I can’t help but think of this song…

Don’t forget to dance, even if you have two left feet.

Thought for the day: love is neither a verb or noun. Love is a person.

Journal: The beginning…

I’ve decided to give something a try: online journaling. On the main journal page you will read….

A place to wander and think. Not sure how long this will last or how often I will post in this category. It is an experiment. Feel free to ignore, comment, etcโ€ฆ just donโ€™t argue. It is a place for thinking and all my thunking might not agree with your thunking, but that really is OK. Perhaps between the two of us, weโ€™ll figure something important out or at least enjoy a bit of time together. If you have a place where you like to think, share that and Iโ€™ll join you along the thinking journey.

That’s pretty much it for the official notice. Please feel free to unsubscribe if you’ve signed up for email notifications of blog posts and just don’t want to receive this much information.

Confession from the Red Eye

Leaving Montana….

Arrived at the airport in Helena, Montana around 6 p.m…. yesterday! Flight left an hour or so later. Arrived in Salt Lake City and hung about for an hour or so, then at 11 p.m. caught the red eye to Atlanta. Why Atlanta, you ask: because Iโ€™m headed to Oklahoma City. Oh, wait… we just passed it and Iโ€™ve got to turn around and fly another couple of hours to get back to it. Well, such is the life of one on vacation: you occasionally have to pay for it.

To the confession: Iโ€™ve been wearing a mask the entire time. I am tired of the mask. I get the mask, but… so, as Iโ€™m walking the never ending concourses of the Atlanta airport, I see a fella has just finished cleaning the โ€œMenโ€™sโ€. No one else is around and Iโ€™m a rebel. I find myself a nice clean smelling stall, lock the door, rip off my mask, and just sit there for about ten minutes breathing eye-watering disinfected air free of my mask. It was brilliant! Please! No one tell the CDC.

It is now 5:52 a.m., โ€œDirty Laundryโ€ is playing loudly in some closed up bar, and Iโ€™m in search of coffee, because Iโ€™ve also learned that as long as you are holding something to eat or drink, you can legally keep the mask off. My coffee may be as cold as a divorce lawyer, but I wonโ€™t be setting that cup down until itโ€™s time to board.

Hereโ€™s hoping you have a mask free day from one living on the edge in toilet stalls across America.

Sermon: Easter 5 RCL B – “The Vineyard”


Photo by Daniel Salgado on Unsplash

Little Johnny was getting ready for his first day of school and was a little bit nervous. Of course his parents were nervous too โ€“ their little boy, all grown up.

Johnnyโ€™s mother and father both went to pick him up at school, eager to find out how his first day of school was.

โ€œSo Johnny, how was your first day of school?โ€ his father asked. โ€œWhat did you learn?โ€

Johnny responded. โ€œNot enough. Because apparently I have to go back tomorrow!โ€

Letโ€™s talk wine! As many of you know, Iโ€™ve started making my own wine. As some of you knowโ€ฆ it ainโ€™t all bad. Now, I donโ€™t do the Lucille Ball thing of stomping out my own grape juice, that part is already prepared, but I do mix in the yeast, oak chips, and other vintner secret ingredients. Itโ€™s just fun to take the time putting it all together, watching it ferment and then waiting to see how things work out. There is a good bit of science behind the making of the wine, but there is also a good bit of science in growing the grape.

Hereโ€™s a bit of trivia for you (and it really depends on the region, type, etc. and who you ask), but how many average size grapes does it take to make a glass of wine? Answer: 75-100, which is about the number of grapes on each cluster of grapes on a vine. Given that each vine produces about 40 clusters means that a single vine can produce about 10 bottles of wine, which tells us that a lot goes into producing all the wine that is consumed worldwide on an annual basis. How much wine would that be? About 40 billion bottles a year. Given that there are only 7.8 billion people on the planet tells me that some of you are doing more than your fair share of consumption! It takes a lot of land, people and other resources in order to keep up with such demand, and a great deal of care must be given to the vine: acidity of soil, amount of moisture, sunlight, etc. Growing takes the longest amount of time, but second to that and perhaps the most labor intensive part is the pruning of the vine, which must be done each year for optimal production and flavorful grape.

There are many different parts of the actual vine, but it is only the branches that are one year old that produce grapes, so if not properly pruned, the vine just gets bigger, but produces little to no fruit. As it is a vine, it will continue to grow, but will become much more thin, fragile and susceptible to disease. At that point, all the energy is going into producing vine and little is left for producing grapes. And, if there are too many branches and too many leaves, then the sunlight canโ€™t reach the grapes that do manage to mature, preventing them from ripening.

The bottom line is that there is a very fine balancing act that is taking place so that the vine is able to be the most productive. Left to its own, it becomes wild and unmanageable, producing little and what it does manage to produce is low quality. Pruned improperly, cutting off too much, and there is nothing that remains in order to grow the fruit. Done properly with expert skill, and it does seem counterintuitive, but the pruningโ€”up to 90% of the vineโ€”will actually produce a healthier more productive vine than when left to its own. Therefore, for his or her part, the vinegrower, the one who prunes, must know the plants very well. Where are they in their production? How and where were they pruned the previous year? What diseases are they susceptible to? What type of fertilizer is required? All this and so much more the vinegrower must know in order to properly care for the vines.

At this point, you may be thinking Iโ€™ve spent a great deal of time this morning talking about wine and winemaking, but the truth is, we havenโ€™t really been talking about wine at all and you know that.

For the most part, during the time of Jesus, Israel was a very agrarian culture and grapesโ€”wineโ€”were a staple. It was safer to drink the wine than it was the water, so wine was livelihood and life. Therefore, Jesus speaking about vines and pruning would have made perfect sense to the disciples. When Jesus said to his disciples, โ€œI am the true vine, and my Father is the vinegrower. He removes every branch in me that bears no fruit. Every branch that bears fruit he prunes to make it bear more fruit,โ€ the disciples would have clearly understood the imagery that Jesus was using. We just had to do a bit of homework in order for it to me made more clear for us.

It is through Jesus that we have life and it is through the care given by the vinegrower, the Father, that we are given those things and tended in such a way that allow for and cause fruitful lives. Jesus, as the vine, provides us with the nourishment we need through word and sacrament, and the Father oversees it all.

In this image, we are the branches that come from the vine and it is the branch that produces the fruit. So what is the fruit? Jesus actually tells us in the very next verses that were not included in this weekโ€™s Gospel lesson: โ€œAs the Father has loved me, so I have loved you; abide in my love.โ€ And a few verses on, โ€œThis is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.โ€ St. John reiterated this point in our Epistle lesson this morning: โ€œThose who say, โ€˜I love God,โ€™ and hate their brothers or sisters, are liars; for those who do not love a brother or sister whom they have seen, cannot love God whom they have not seen. The commandment we have from him is this: those who love God must love their brothers and sisters also.โ€ The fruit that we are to produce begins with the relationships we have with God and with one another. Everything else is a product of those relationships, that love. As John states, it is not enough to say, โ€œI love God,โ€ because you must also be able to say, โ€œI love my enemy.โ€ Have you reached that level of perfection in your life?

There are many things that prevent us from progressing towards this, but at the heart of it all is our pride. Our need to be right or to get even or to simply hold a grudge. Before we can make progress in love, we must allow God to prune away the pride that holds us back, so that we make room for new and fruitful growth.

Iโ€™ve been reading Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez. When an uncle found himself angry with his nephew for not following through in a job, the uncle found peace. Marquez writes, the uncle โ€œallowed himself to be swayed by his conviction that human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, but that life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves.โ€ Jesus said, that we must be โ€œborn againโ€ฆ of water and spirit.โ€ Perhaps Little Johnny said it the simplest when asked what he learned at school: โ€œNot enough. Because apparently I have to go back tomorrow!โ€

If we have not learned to love God, our neighbor, and our enemies, then we apparently have to go back to school again tomorrow and be pruned a bit. Fortunately, I do not believe that the God who created us will completely prune us out of the vine as long as we are ever striving to fulfill his commandments, however, we must learn to allow God to prune out those parts that prevent us from producing good fruit. It is then that we can make progress in our relationship with God and with one another.

Let us pray: Come Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful and kindle in them the fire of your love. Send forth your Spirit and they shall be created. And You shall renew the face of the earth. Amen.

Sermon: Easter 4 RCL B – “Shepherd King”


A group of Americans were on a tour of Israel and as they travelled through the countryside they passed a large herd of sheep. The shepherd was out front and the sheep were following. The guide explained to the tourists that the shepherd did not follow the sheep, pushing them along, but instead led them and they followed the sound of his voice. As Jesus said, โ€œThe sheep hear [the shepherdโ€™s] voice, and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.โ€

There were some in the tour group who doubted this and snickered and they believed their doubts were confirmed when a short time later they saw a man behind a herd of sheep pushing them along by poking and prodding them with a stick. One of the tourist called out to the guide, โ€œI thought you said the shepherds here always lead the sheep. Why is that man walking behind and driving them forward?โ€ The guide looked over to see what was taking place, then answered, โ€œThat man isnโ€™t the shepherd. Heโ€™s the butcher.โ€

We know that the Judges, like Deborah and Gideon, ruled over Israel prior to the kings, and we know that one day the people came to the Prophet Samuel and said, โ€œWe want a king like everybody else.โ€ It was then that Samuel said, โ€œYou donโ€™t really want one, but if you insistโ€ฆ,โ€ but before giving them the king, he warned them why it was a bad idea: the king will take your sons and daughters from you to serve him, heโ€™ll take the best of everything you have and then some, heโ€™ll send you off to die in wars, itโ€™ll be a real mess, but the people persisted and God gave them what they asked for.

The first king was Saul. Saul was a bit on the crazy side and that didnโ€™t work out so well. When Saul died, the people came to Davidโ€”as in David and Goliathโ€”and proposed to make him their king. They said to him, โ€œBehold, we are your bone and flesh.  In times past, when Saul was king over us, it was you who led out and brought in Israel. And the Lord said to you, โ€˜You shall be shepherd of my people Israel, and you shall be prince over Israel.โ€™โ€ You shall be shepherd / prince, you shall be king. This is the first time in scripture that the word shepherd was used as a way of referring to the king, but it is one that endured throughout.

David was better at the job than Saul, but he wasnโ€™t without his faults. Following him were both good and bad kings, but ultimately, after roughly 500 years, it declined to such a state that God was infuriated, so he called on the Prophet Ezekiel to prophesy against the kings, against the shepherds: โ€œAh, shepherds of Israel who have been feeding yourselves! Should not shepherds feed the sheep?  You eat the fat, you clothe yourselves with the wool, you slaughter the fat ones, but you do not feed the sheep.  The weak you have not strengthened, the sick you have not healed, the injured you have not bound up, the strayed you have not brought back, the lost you have not sought, and with force and harshness you have ruled them.โ€ Everything Samuel said the kings would do, they did. The people were lost and scattered and sent into exile. The kings were not the shepherds of the people, leading them along with their voice and their words. The kings were the butchers, poking and prodding the people and leading them to their deaths.

However, the Lord may punish the shepherds, but he had no plans to forsake his people, the sheep, for he also said through Ezekiel, โ€œBehold, I, I myself will search for my sheep and will seek them outโ€ฆ I will feed them with good pasture, and on the mountain heights of Israel shall be their grazing land. There they shall lie down in good grazing land, and on rich pasture they shall feed on the mountains of Israelโ€ฆ. I will seek the lost, and I will bring back the strayed, and I will bind up the injured, and I will strengthen the weak, and the fat and the strong I will destroy. I will feed them in justice.โ€

In those words, did you hear Psalm 23?

The Lord is my shepherdโ€ฆ
He makes me lie down in green pasturesโ€ฆ
[He] guides me along right pathwaysโ€ฆ
[He spreads] a table before me in the presence of those who trouble meโ€ฆ

In those words, did you hear the feeding of the 5,000, when with just a few loaves of bread and a couple of fish, Jesus fed the multitude?

In those words of Ezekiel, did you hear Jesus saying, I will โ€œbind up the brokenheartedโ€ and โ€œFor the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.โ€

Today, in our Gospel, Jesus said, โ€œI am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.โ€ Today, in our Gospel, Jesus said, โ€œI am the good King. The King lays down his life for his people.โ€ By his life and death, Jesus fulfilled Ezekielโ€™s prophecy and became the true shepherd and our King.

Today, we have many shepherd kings that surround us. Some are actual leaders in various capacities, but they also come in other forms. These may be our goals and ambitions, whether they be for our health or wealth or jobs, and still others might be for recognition or perfection in some area. They are people and aspects of our lives that seek to guide and, in some cases, control us. This does not make them bad, per se, but whatever they might be, we should examine them and ask ourselves, โ€œIn pursuing _, am I hearing and following the voice of the Good Shepherd King or am I being deceived and being poked and prodded along by the butcher?โ€ Ask yourself that question and also see where it leads you. Through your involvement, are you experiencing the promises of God? Put into the words of our readings today: do you experience the green pastures and still waters or does it bring hardship and pain? Ask yourself those questions and put those parts of your life to the test. In doing so, you will either discover the Good Shepherd King leading you or the butcher that should be removed from your life.

The Lord is my shepherd. The Lord is my King. In all things, allow his leading voice to be what rules in your life.

Let us pray: Sovereign God, ruler of all creation, you sent Jesus to testify to the truth: that you alone are the Lord of life. Help us to listen always to his voice so that we may proclaim his realm of justice, peace, and endless love; through Christ, who reigns forever. Amen.

Sermon: Easter 3 RCL B – “Oneness”


Boudreaux was talking to his buddy, Thibodeaux, “I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently and based on many years of marriage, I’ve come to a remarkable conclusion.โ€

“This I want to hear already,” says Thib. “So tell me about your wonderful conclusion.โ€

“I’ve discovered,” says Boudreaux, “that if I only slightly upset Clotile, it’s almost certain that she will shout at me. Fair enough! But if I really upset her, she won’t shout louder but instead will give me the silent treatment.โ€

Thibodeaux almost immediately starts nodding his head and says, โ€œI understand. To get a little peace, itโ€™s sometimes worth putting in a little extra effort.”

Boudreaux would define peace as Clotile not yelling at him, but if we were to go around the room, Iโ€™m sure we would find a variety of answers. Peace is the lack of noise. Peace is sitting on a beach. Peace is being in the arms of one you love. All of these answers are correct, but they are really only highlighting a certain aspect of peace.

Websterโ€™s defines peace as tranquility, quiet, freedom from civil disturbance, harmony, and so forth. The biblical understanding of peace takes these things into account, but it brings them all under an overarching idea that I can best describe as โ€œoneness.โ€

The Hebrew word for peace is shalom, and the Greek is eirene (ir-ray-nay). Eirene / peace is a noun, but the Greek word has at its root a verb: eiro. Eiro means โ€œto join or bind together that which has been separated,โ€ therefore, peace is not just the absence of Clotile yelling at Boudreaux or some other noise or trouble, but is instead a brining about of oneness that transcends the noise or trouble.

Jim Walton was a missionary and linguist in the jungles of Columbia and he took on the task of translating portions of the New Testament into the local language. In the process, he found that he lacked the native vocabulary to be able to translate the word peace.

At some point, Jim was scheduled to take a local chief to a village that was a three days walk or a twenty minute plane ride, however, because of an error, the chief missed the flight and he became very angry. Finding Jim, he launched off into angry rant and Jim noticed that the chief kept repeating the same phrase. He did not understand it at the time, but translating it later he discovered that when the chief was angry, he kept saying, โ€œI donโ€™t have one heart.โ€ The chief did not have oneness in his heart, there was something brokenโ€”he didnโ€™t have peace.

I know that I quite often come back to this passage of scripture, so bear with meโ€ฆ on the night before he was crucified, we hear the great priestly prayer of Jesus and what does he pray for? He prays that those who the Father has given him โ€œmay all be one.โ€ He tells the Father, โ€œThe glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me.โ€ He is praying that we have one heart with each other and one heart with the Father and he is praying that through him that one heart might be attained.

Now, do you remember the two disciples that were on the Road to Emmaus and the stranger (a.k.a. Jesus) joined them and how they were talking about all the things that happened with Jesus and the crucifixion and that when evening had come Jesus sat with them and broke bread and their eyes were opened and they recognized him? Well, at that point, Jesus vanished from their sight and those two disciples hightailed it back to Jerusalem to tell the others. At this point, Scripture tells us, โ€œAs they were talking about these thingsโ€ฆโ€โ€ฆas they were in the upper room, talking with the other disciples about what had happenedโ€”and this is where our Gospel reading picks up todayโ€”โ€œJesus himself stood among them, and said to them, โ€˜Peace to you!โ€™โ€

In the times before Jesus, the Israelites had wandered in the desert, then they came to the land flowing with milk and honey, but before they crossed the Jordan River into this promised land, the Lord renewed the Covenant with them: โ€œChoose you this day whom you will serve,โ€ and the people chose God, so God promised that he would be with them if they kept his commandments, but just as they wandered in the desert, they wandered in their faith and went after other gods, breaking the One True Godโ€™s Laws and his Commandments; therefore, God did not break the Covenant with themโ€”there would always be a remnantโ€”but he did take from them the peace, the oneness, that had been established between them. Speaking through the Prophet Isaiah, the Lord said:

โ€œI am the Lord your God,
ย ย ย ย who teaches you to profit,
ย ย ย ย who leads you in the way you should go.
Oh that you had paid attention to my commandments!
ย ย ย ย Then your peace would have been like a river,
ย ย ย ย and your righteousness like the waves of the sea;
your offspring would have been like the sand,
ย ย ย ย and your descendants like its grains;
their name would never be cut off
ย ย ย ย or destroyed from before me.โ€

All the things that could have been, but in their wickedness, they turned from God and they were left separated, broken from God and from one another as they were carried off into exile, and that brokenness remained until it was healed on the cross and proclaimed to the disciples and to us in the upper room when โ€œJesus himself stood among them, and said to them, โ€˜Peace to you!โ€™โ€ St. Paul teaches us, โ€œSince we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ.โ€ Through Christ Jesus, we again have oneness with God.

When you and I exchange The Peace, it is this hope, this oneness that we are extending to one another. That we might be of one heart with each other and with God, but it doesnโ€™t end there. Jesus said, โ€œThus it is written, that the Messiah is to suffer and to rise from the dead on the third day, and that repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things.โ€ In saying โ€œthat repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed,โ€ Jesus is saying that peaceโ€”between God and manโ€”is to be proclaimed and that we are the proclaimers, we are the witnesses of oneness with God, a oneness and peace that is made available to all.

He who is the Prince of Peace is sending us into the world to proclaim the restoration of our oneness with God. How do we do that? Perhaps St. Francis said it best in a prayerโ€ฆ

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.

O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Amen.