Please comment below. When I return, we’ll combine some of your journal entries with mine and produce a printed journal of our adventure.
WEEK SIX PROMPT
Reflecting on your week, where did you witness God in action? Where was He silent (in your opinion?)
Candle in a Cave 
For me, I feel that I witness God in action every day around me. I see God in the beauty of where I live with nature, beautiful sunrises and sunsets, animals, birds, etc. I don’t feel that I need to be in a church to experience God, but the feeling of him around me would be stronger in a church in some ways.
As for God being silent, I wish he’d answer me and tell me when will be happy, or why I don’t deserve to be happy for whatever reason. I am almost 2 years divorced from a long unhappy marriage, moved to be closer to family, and now deal with a lot taking care of an elderly father, so I feel like I’ve jumped from one skillet to another with stressful situations. Then I reconnected with a man who I had not seen in 30+ years, and we found out we still love each other dearly, but he has his own struggles and things he’s dealing with, so he keeps putting our relationship on the back burner. I’m just wondering if I will ever be at a place in my life where I will have peace and be happy. I am a positive person, but this is really doing a number on me. Can God even help me with this? I know there are people out there with terrible situations they’ve had to deal with that are very tragic compared to my situation, so maybe I have no right to even wonder about this. Maybe I just haven’t prayed enough to God, and he hasn’t heard me.
I believe what you wrote is a perfect prayer and I believe that it is heard by Our Father. It is the answering bit that we always want to put a rush on. That said, I get it. 100%. I can’t offer you an answer, but I can offer you my prayers. Prayers for peace, resolution, and the beauty of seeing God in daily life….. sounds so trite as I type this out, and it would be if I didn’t believe it, but… we believe in a God who hears and answers our prayers. Maybe just not in the way we are looking for.
Thank you for your quick reply. I appreciate what you said. I know you can only send prayers, not an answer. Even though you asked the original question, I’m feeling kind of silly now that I said all of this to you. One, you aren’t a therapist, and two, you are on Sabatical, so the last thing you want to hear about is other people’s problems when you are enjoying yourself. I will take what you said to heart. You are probably right about the last sentance. I might not be getting an answer in the way I’m looking for. I will keep praying. Thank you again.
Please don’t feel silly. I love to write, and many times I’ll have to write out what I’m thinking in order to get at the heart of the matter. It is also easy for me to isolate and shut others out, trying to sort things out for myself, but the truth is, we need one another. I’m happy to listen at anytime and glad you felt you could be honest.
Ok, I’ll try. I’m usually an open book kind of person, but I don’t like to burden others with my problems, or ask for help. I hope these emails are just between you and I or I’ll feel even more ridiculous if everyone reads this. I’ve been writing my thoughts down for a little over a week now to get things out of my head. It seems to helps a little so everything isn’t on repeat in my head. I know we need one another, but I don’t like people feeling sorry for me, or feeling pity if I open up about my situation. I know my family and close friends only want the best for me and for me to be happy, but they don’t always know or understand all the little details when they don’t know the people involved. It’s complicated to say the least. Thank you for your input and offer to listen. I’ll keep that in mind. Too bad I’m many states away from where you live, or I’d consider speaking to you in person. You sound like a good man. Well enjoy your day, or night, whatever that is where you are now.