Podcast Episode: Sermon: Proper 7 RCL A – “חֵסֵד / Hesed”

Pip: There's a word in Hebrew that English can't quite hold — and a bear in Aesop's fables that apparently had something to say about it.

Mara: This episode covers one sermon from Fr. John, working through the Hebrew word hesed — covenant loyalty, steadfast love, mercy — and what it asks of us in return. Let's start with that word and what it actually means.

Sermon: Proper 7 RCL A — The Weight of Hesed

Mara: The sermon opens with an Aesop's fable about two travelers and a bear — one climbs a tree, one plays dead — and uses it to frame a question about loyalty. That question leads straight into the Hebrew word hesed, which the sermon argues is the hallmark of God's covenantal character.

Pip: And the definition comes from Strong's Concordance, which pulls no punches: "chesed saturates the Hebrew Scriptures as the hallmark of God's covenantal character and the standard for covenantal response among His people… Of its approximately 247 occurrences, over half lie in the Psalms, yet it shapes every major section of the Old Testament, from the Torah to the Post-Exilic books."

Mara: The practical upshot is that no single English word carries it. The sermon lists steadfast love, loving kindness, mercy, faithfulness, and loyalty — all of them partial translations of the same Hebrew root.

Pip: Which explains why Psalm 23:6 keeps getting read as a gentle reassurance when it's actually something closer to a covenant guarantee. The sermon unpacks it that way — goodness and mercy become goodness and God's steadfast, faithful, loyal love. That's a different weight.

Mara: And the covenant dimension matters here. Hesed isn't just a quality God has in the abstract — it's specifically tied to relationship. Deuteronomy 7:9 is cited: "the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations."

Pip: So it's not sentiment. It's a binding commitment with a track record. The sermon puts it plainly: God doesn't just say "I am faithful" — he shows it. The proof is John 3:16.

Mara: That's where the sermon turns the question around. God's hesed is costly, freely given, unearned. But the Matthew 10 passage — "whoever does not take up the cross and follow me is not worthy of me" — makes clear that covenant runs both directions.

Pip: The Luke version is even starker. "Hate" your father, mother, wife, children. The sermon reads that as deliberate exaggeration: not literal hatred, but the kind of total priority that makes real love of others possible in the first place.

Mara: And then comes the honest admission — we don't hold up our end. Adam, David, Peter, us. The sermon doesn't soften it. But hesed circles back: "His hesed endures forever," from Psalm 136. Covenant mercy covers covenant failure.

Pip: The bear gets the last word, really. Deserting a friend in danger is unwise — and the sermon asks whether we'd be that kind of friend to Jesus, or the other kind.

Mara: The closing prayer frames it as reliance: strength, wisdom, protection, grace — all asked from the same God whose hesed the sermon just spent a thousand words unpacking.


Pip: A word that takes five English words to translate, and still loses something in the transfer.

Mara: And a covenant that asks the same thing back from us that it promises. That tension doesn't resolve — it just keeps asking the question.

Pip: More from Candle in a Cave next time.

Sermon: Proper 7 RCL A – “חֵסֵד / Hesed”


One of Aesop’s fables tells of two men who were traveling in company through a forest when, all at once, a huge Bear crashed out of the brush near them. One of the Men, thinking of his own safety, climbed a tree. The other, unable to fight the savage beast alone, threw himself on the ground and lay still, as if he were dead. He had heard that a Bear will not touch a dead body. It must have been true, for the Bear snuffed at the Man’s head awhile, and then, seeming to be satisfied that he was dead, walked away. The Man in the tree climbed down. “It looked just as if that Bear whispered in your ear,” he said. “What did he tell you?” “He said,” answered the other, “that it was not at all wise to keep company with a fellow who would desert his friend in a moment of danger.”

Reflecting on our Gospel lesson this morning led me to consider the loyalty we owe to God. This thought, in turn, brought me to the Hebrew word for loyalty: hesed.

To explore the meaning of hesed further, I turned to Strong’s Concordance. If you haven’t heard of it, Strong’s is essentially a very in-depth dictionary of the words in the Bible. It states, “חֵסֵד (chesed) saturates the Hebrew Scriptures as the hallmark of God’s covenantal character and the standard for covenantal response among His people… Of its approximately 247 occurrences, over half lie in the Psalms, yet it shapes every major section of the Old Testament, from the Torah to the Post-Exilic books.” (Source)

Despite at least 25 years of serious study of Holy Scripture, I would have come across such an important concept, but… not that I remember.

But as I dug in, I realized that the trouble with the word hesed is that there is no single English word that fully captures its meaning. Loyalty is only one aspect; so, in scripture, we often find it rendered as steadfast love, loving kindness, mercy, faithfulness, and loyalty. One of the most popular verses where the word appears is Psalm 23:6,

“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.”

Given the richness of hesed, we can now see that this verse offers far more than we may have realized at first. ‘Surely God’s goodness and God’s steadfast love, God’s loving kindness, God’s mercy, God’s faithfulness, God’s loyalty shall follow me all the days of my life.’ Still, for God’s mercy or faithfulness to count as hesed, it must not only reflect these qualities but also be specifically connected to the covenant relationship God has with his people. The covenant is beautifully expressed in Deuteronomy: ‘Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations.’ (Deuteronomy 7:9)

This all points towards the covenant relationship that God has made with his people. In other words, God’s mercy, loyalty, faithfulness, and the like are not just words. These attributes come with action and proof. God says, “I’m not only going to tell you that I am faithful, but I am also going to show you that I am faithful. I am not only going to tell you I am loyal, but I’m also going to show you. I’m not only going to tell you that I love you, but I will show you that I love you.” And we know that he has—“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)

That single verse, I believe, is at the heart of God’s hesed toward his people. It is love, faithfulness, mercy—in action. This action is not cheap; it is very costly. For us, it is not earned, bought, or demanded; instead, it is freely given as a grace because God chose us as recipients of his love and grace. That is the covenant he has made with us.

Yes, this week’s Gospel reading got me thinking about loyalty—just a few of the things I learned. We’ve been speaking of God’s hesed toward us, but what about our hesed toward God?

Our Gospel lesson from Matthew 10 does not use the word hesed, but as I learned more about its meaning, what Jesus describes looks remarkably like the covenant loyalty the Old Testament often calls hesed—showing steadfast love and kindness—in our relationship with him.

Jesus said, “Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword…. Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever does not take up the cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Those who find their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake will find it.” 

Luke’s Gospel puts this in even harder words, “If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple. Whoever does not bear his own cross and come after me cannot be my disciple.” (Luke 14:26-27)

In both passages, Jesus insists our relationship with Him goes beyond lip service. It must be accompanied by real action and commitment.

Last week, we explored how our baptism brings us into a new allegiance, a new identity, and a new life with Christ Jesus as King, savior, and master. This week, we see what that covenant demands of us—it demands nothing less than what God demands of Himself. God says, ‘I will show you unwavering faithfulness; therefore, you must show me unwavering faithfulness.’ God says, ‘I will show you 100% loving kindness, loyalty, all these things; therefore, to be in a covenantal relationship with me demands that you show me 100% loving kindness, loyalty, etc.’

When Luke says we are to ‘hate’ father, mother, wife, and children, he is using exaggeration to emphasize a point: we must place God above all else. By doing this, God can then teach us and give us the grace necessary to ‘love one another,’ as He has loved us. So, being in this covenant relationship with God 100% also enables us to be in a covenant relationship with each other. In this way, hesed becomes not only a word that defines a relationship but also the defining characteristic of a life lived to the glory of God. 

But here’s the rub. I said that God demands 100% loving-kindness, loyalty, and the rest from us, but the reality is we never do. I believe we try, but we fail. Adam and Eve failed, David failed, Peter failed, we fail. There’s no excuse, but when we fail to fulfill this covenant with God and one another, there is hesed again—there is mercy, God’s mercy to us. As the Psalmist says, God’s “mercy…His hesed endures forever.” (Psalm 136) As God shows us covenantal mercy, we show it to each other.

Aesop’s bear made a very good point: It is “not at all wise to keep company with a fellow who deserts his friend in a moment of danger.” This speaks to one aspect of what we should look for in a friend, but it also speaks to our understanding of God’s relationship with us, as proven time and again. Jesus has called us friends (John 15:15). Ask yourself, “Am I the kind of friend to Jesus who would abandon him under any circumstances, or regardless of the cost, would I remain faithful?”

In discovering the answer, we begin to see whether we are worthy of Him, whether we are His disciples. And, if necessary, we rely on His unfailing mercy to restore us to Him and seek to fulfill our part of the covenant—the hesed—we have entered into. 

Let us pray: 

May the Strength of God guide us.
May the Power of God preserve us.
May the Wisdom of God instruct us.
May the Hand of God protect us.
May the Way of God direct us.
May the Shield of God defend us.
May the Angels of God guard us.
Against the snares of the evil one.

May Thy Grace, Lord,
Always be ours,
This day, O Lord, and forevermore. Amen.

Podcast Episode: Sermon: Proper 6 RCL A – “Baptisms”

Pip: There's a sermon out there that opens with Henry Ford, pivots through a Ridley Scott film, and lands at a baptismal font — and somehow the logic holds the whole way through.

Mara: That's Fr. John's recent work at Candle in a Cave — a sermon on what baptism actually does to a person, and why the answer is more than symbolic.

Pip: Let's start with the knights of Jerusalem and what they have to do with a sacrament.

What Baptism Actually Does

Mara: The sermon opens with a question that sounds almost dismissive — does water make someone a child of God any more than a sword makes someone a knight?

Pip: And the film Kingdom of Heaven is doing real theological work here. Balian of Ibelin knights common farmers and blacksmiths before a siege, and the bishop asks whether the ceremony changes anything. Balian's answer is one word.

Mara: The sermon quotes it directly: "Does making a man a knight make him a better fighter?" — and Balian looks the bishop square in the eye and says, "Yes."

Pip: That yes carries weight because medieval knighthood wasn't ceremonial decoration. It conferred land, status, religious standing, and — crucially — a new interior sense of self.

Mara: Exactly the point. The sermon draws the parallel plainly: baptism isn't merely about water, just as knighthood isn't merely about a sword. Both are about, in the sermon's own words, "a new allegiance, a new identity, and a new life."

Pip: The Ford story at the opening earns its place here — a machinist returns stolen tools the morning after his baptism. Something actually shifted.

Mara: The sermon lists what that shift includes: forgiveness of sins, participation in Christ's death and resurrection, renunciation of evil, and entry into the community of faith. Then it names the seal — chrismation with oil blessed by the bishop, and the words spoken at the sign of the cross.

Pip: "You are sealed by the Holy Spirit in Baptism and marked as Christ's own for ever." That's the line that closes the ceremony, and the sermon treats it as the thing that makes the rest of it stick.

Mara: Nine baptisms on the day this sermon was preached. The closing line echoes Ford: dam up the Cimarron and baptize everyone.

Pip: A bishop, a machinist, and Balian of Ibelin walk into a font — and the sermon makes the case that all three are asking the same question.


Mara: What holds this together is a single claim — that identity conferred by ritual is real identity, not performance.

Pip: Which means the next time someone asks what water does, the answer is still yes.

Sermon: Proper 6 RCL A – “Baptisms”


According to Christian ministry lore, a machinist at the Ford Motor Company found religion and was baptized. Before his conversion, the man had frequently stolen parts and tools from the Ford factory.

Moved by his newfound faith, the employee returned all the stolen goods to his boss the very next morning, explained his baptism, and asked for forgiveness. Dumbfounded by this unprecedented response, the manager sent a telegram to Henry Ford (who was traveling in Europe at the time) asking how to handle the situation. Ford reportedly wired back his enthusiastic approval with the now-famous reply: “Dam up the Detroit River, and baptize the entire city!”

When I get home on Thursday nights—my Friday—my brain is only up for a glass of wine and a movie. Since most new movies disappoint, I’ll usually rewatch an old favorite. A couple of Thursdays ago, I settled in with Kingdom of Heaven, best described as historical fiction about the defense and fall of Jerusalem to Saladin in 1187.

This movie centers on Balian of Ibelin. In the movie, his personal life is entirely fictional; however, his role in the defense of Jerusalem is quite accurate, down to a powerful scene as the final battle approaches. 

The problem: too few knights remain to defend the city. Most have died or fled. The Patriarch of Jerusalem points this out to Balian. Accepting his words, Balian gives a rousing speech and commands, “Every man-at-arms or capable of bearing them, kneel.” All comply. Approaching a young man, Balian recites his father’s words: “Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright, that God may love thee. Speak the truth even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless. That is your oath.” To the young man’s surprise, Balian slaps him and says, “And that’s so you remember it.” Balian then steps back, addressing the assembly, and says, “Rise, a knight.”

The bishop, who has witnessed all this, is not impressed and says to Balian, “Does making a man a knight make him a better fighter?” Balian looks the bishop square in the eye and says, “Yes.”

That actually happened, but for us today, we might be inclined to think like the bishop—putting lipstick on a pig doesn’t make a pig a beauty queen. However, that’s us today. Back then, being made a knight made you something new.

Being made a knight gave you land and privileges. It offered chances for advancement, political influence, and access to goods and services a commoner would never have. It meant entry into the aristocracy and more. But perhaps more importantly, a shift took place within. You actually became someone. People looked up to you; they called you “Sir.” Your sense of self-worth increased dramatically.

There was also a religious aspect, especially in Jerusalem. There, you became a true defender of the faith. For many, you were a Christian hero. The Pope essentially stated that serving as a knight in Jerusalem counted toward all penances you owed. 

When the bishop asked, “Does making a man a knight make him a better fighter?” Balian’s “Yes” carried all this weight, and those who took the knee believed it. No longer were they blacksmiths, farmers, peasants, or even slaves. They were now great defenders of the faith, and for those who truly believed, it would have meant a great deal and, in fact, made them knights and better fighters.

And if you have figured out by now that I’m not talking about the knights of Jerusalem but about those to be baptized into the Christian faith, give yourself a gold star.

Today, we have ____ who will be baptized into Christ’s one holy catholic and apostolic Church. Yet some might ask, “Does water make someone a child of God any more than a sword makes someone a knight?” The answer: Yes! Because neither baptism nor knighthood is merely about water or swords. Both are about a new allegiance, a new identity, and a new life.

Behind that, yes, lie forgiveness of sins, participation in Christ’s death and resurrection, the renunciation of Satan and evil forces of this world, the desire to fight sin and injustice, and true loyalty to Christ Jesus as Lord and Savior. Baptism also opens participation in the community of faith in thought, word, and deed, the call to commend the faith that is in you, and more. Through baptism, you become a citizen of the Kingdom of God and take on all the benefits and duties of a child of God, as has been practiced throughout the Church’s history.

Finally, I won’t be slapping anyone to make them remember it, but we will chrismate all those baptized with the oil blessed and set aside by the bishop. As the sign of the cross is made on the forehead, the words are spoken: “You are sealed by the Holy Spirit in Baptism and marked as Christ’s own for ever.” This sealing in the Holy Spirit helps us remember all that has been done for us and all that we have vowed to do ourselves. 

Given all this sacrament of baptism accomplishes in a person, I say, “Dam up the Cimarron and let’s baptize everyone.” Or, according to the Book of Common Prayer on page 301, “The candidates for Holy Baptism will now be presented.”

Nine Baptisms today!

Sermon: Ephrem of Edessa


Jesus said, “Every scribe who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like the master of a household who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old.”

“Every scribe.” We heard this reading just a few Wednesdays ago when we studied Alcuin, who was a librarian of sorts. It also appears when we celebrate the great historian, the Venerable Bede; the theologian, Thomas Aquinas; and a more contemporary writer we studied at length, Dietrich Bonhoeffer. We hear this reading and understand that our Saint’s gift involved the Church’s writings. Ephrem of Edessa, whom we celebrate today, is no different.

Early on, he served in the household of Bishop Jacob of Nisbis, and it is likely that he attended the Council of Nicaea (where the Nicene Creed was composed) with the Bishop in 325. Following the Bishop’s death, Ephrem remained in service to Jacob’s successors but was eventually forced to flee following the Persian invasion. He then settled in a cave, where he lived out the remainder of his life.

Although he lived an austere life, he remained active in preaching and writing and was ordained a deacon. Of his writings, he not only wrote the hymn we read but also over 400 others used to teach the orthodox faith, which is how he became known as “The Harp of the Holy Spirit.” He died in 373 from exhaustion while caring for the sick. 

There is much for Ephrem to be remembered for, but his role as “scribe” stands out most. For some, his writings are a bit too flowery, but many others find great beauty and comfort in them. In one particular hymn, he addresses the Upper Room where the Last Supper was held: “O blessed spot! No one has seen or shall see the things which you have seen. In you the Lord himself became true altar, priest, and bread and chalice of salvation. He alone suffices for all, yet none suffices for him. He is Altar and Lamb, victim and sacrifice, priest as well as food.”

In the Gospels, Jesus is never pleased with the scribes. He sees them, along with the Sadducees and Pharisees, as placing stumbling blocks before the people, at one point saying, “But woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you lock people out of the kingdom of heaven. For you do not go in yourselves, and when others are going in, you stop them.” Yet Jesus says that what is needed to be a faithful scribe is one “who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old.” It is one who understands the writings of those who have gone before and recognizes that those writings speak of and point to the Savior.

Jesus said, “For truly I tell you, whoever gives you a cup of water to drink because you bear the name of Christ will by no means lose the reward.” Ephrem was one who, through his writings, gave us a “cup of water to drink,” and therefore has received his reward. We give thanks for him and all those who have passed on such knowledge, which leads to salvation through Jesus.

Sermon: Proper 5 RCL A – “With Boldness”


Groucho Marx said, “If you find it hard to laugh at yourself, I would be happy to do it for you.” And the Tunisian Prime Minister, Habib Bourguiba, wrote, “Happy is the person who can laugh at himself. He will never cease to be amused.” We know that laughing at ourselves, or self-deprecating humor, can have a healthy side, but it can also become detrimental. We say something about ourselves that makes others laugh, but on the inside, we actually believe it. Example: “My romantic strategy is simple: I just wait for someone to make a terrible mistake and fall in love with me.” In addition, most of the time, we don’t need to laugh at ourselves, because the world can pour it on just fine. That is not only true of who we are, but also of our faith. In fact, the world has been great at ridiculing and laughing at those who act in faith.

There’s Noah. He’s an easy one. Can you imagine the grief they must have put him through? According to Scripture, it took him 50-100 years to build the Ark. All the while, everyone was watching, and I’m certain they were laughing. When he started gathering the animals, think of the ridicule. How stupid could a person be?

Then there was Abram, who became Abraham, whom we read about today. Can you imagine: Abram starts packing up his house. The neighbors stop by and ask, “Hey, Abe, what are you doing?” His response, “The Lord spoke to me and said, ‘Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you. I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you, and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing.’” Can you imagine the ridicule and laughter? “You can’t even pack your camel correctly, and the Lord is going to make a nation out of you? Please.”

When David was just a boy, he went up against the giant Goliath. His brother saw him coming and berated him. The King, Saul, said, “You’re just a boy. You’ve got no chance” (cf. 1 Samuel 17:33). Then, Goliath laughed and sneered. “Am I a dog, that you come to me with sticks?… Come to me, and I will give your flesh to the birds of the air and to the beasts of the field.” (1 Samuel 17:43) All of them rebuked him and, I’m certain, laughed at him, not only the Philistines but his own people. “You’re nothing but a child. Go home to mama.” But what St. Paul would later write to the Corinthians was just as applicable to these: “God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God.” (1 Corinthians 1:27–29) 

Noah, his family, and the animals were saved from the flood, while the world perished around them. Abraham walked the earth 4,000 years ago, and we are part of the great nation established through him, which continues to grow and expand. David struck down Goliath with a single small stone and became the greatest King Israel has ever known, and his lineage produced Jesus. God chose the weak, the despised, the lowly, and the ridiculed to accomplish His work, so that it was clear to all that the victory was God’s alone.

If these three were the only examples in Scripture, we could say, “Everybody gets lucky on occasion,” but in truth, it is the way of God. And the pattern continues. Gideon’s 300 defeated an army. Esther saved her people. A young girl named Mary said yes to God and bore the Savior of the world.”

Again and again, God works through the foolish, the weak, and the ridiculed, overturning the expectations of the powerful.

In our Gospel reading, we find two more examples. First is the calling of Matthew. Jesus said, “Follow me,” and Matthew did. That evening, Jesus had dinner at Matthew’s house, and many other sinners were present. Seeing this, the Pharisees said, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?” They ridiculed Jesus and, I imagine, laughed at his foolishness. I suspect their comments were like those of the Pharisee who invited Jesus to dinner. You’ll recall that the “sinful woman” came and washed Jesus’ feet with her tears, dried them with her hair, and then anointed them. The Pharisee thought, “If this man were a prophet, he would have known who and what sort of woman this is who is touching him, for she is a sinner.” (Luke 7:39) I can hear them saying the same thing about Matthew and his companions.

The second incident in the Gospel involves Jesus. The little girl has died, yet through her, Jesus intends to demonstrate the power of God. He says to the crowd, “‘Go away; for the girl is not dead but sleeping.’ And they laughed at him.” They believed that only God has power over life and death, and, in their understanding, Jesus was merely a man.

Remember how Jesus’ hometown ridiculed him? They said, “Where did this man get this wisdom and these mighty works? Is not this the carpenter’s son? Is not his mother called Mary? And are not his brothers James and Joseph and Simon and Judas? And are not all his sisters with us? Where then did this man get all these things?” (Matthew 13:54-56) “We know this kid. Who does he think he is? He’s Joe’s boy. He’s nothing.”

When Jesus said to those gathered around the dead little girl that she was only sleeping, they laughed at Him. They knew she was dead and that only God could raise the dead. They were saying, “Who do you think you are? You’re nothing.”

However, you would think that after witnessing all the miracles the people would have believed, but even then there was still ridicule and disbelief. “‘He is possessed by Beelzebul,’ and ‘by the prince of demons he casts out the demons.’” (Mark 3:22)

Writing in the second century, the philosopher Celsus spoke sarcastically about Christianity and those who followed Jesus. He described Christians as “the most uneducated and vulgar persons” and “like a swarm of bats–or ants creeping out of their nests–or frogs holding a symposium round a swamp–or worms in a conventicle in a corner of mud.” Not what I would call high praise, but it is what many thought of Christianity and Christians. 2,000 years later, not much has changed. Should we be surprised? No. Jesus said, “A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master…. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household.” (Matthew 10:24-25)

Throughout history, God’s people have been ridiculed and laughed at for their faith. Yet no word or sneer from the outside has stopped us from moving forward. Yet, there is ridicule and laughter that can and does bring everything to a halt—when we attack ourselves. When we laugh or sneer at the faith that is in us. What does that look like?

“I’m not good enough. My sins are too great for God to hear me.” “God is too busy to be bothered with the likes of me and my little problems.” “What I want to say or ask just isn’t all that important, so I shouldn’t bother God with it.” “I’m too weak. I’m too foolish. I’m laughable in my relationship with God.” These and all the other “reasons” we come up with are simply ways of degrading and ridiculing who we are in God and in our faith. We’re laughing at ourselves, but not in a healthy way, and it is detrimental to our life with God.

Jesus says, “If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.” (John 15:7) There are no qualifiers in that statement like, “Ask whatever you want, as long as you’re as holy as me, and it better be important.” Jesus says, “Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” (Luke 12:32) It is the Father’s pleasure to hear from us and to fulfill those things in accordance with His ways.

St. Paul says it so clearly: “Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession… Let us then with confidence—let us boldly—draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” (Hebrews 4:12, 16)

There are plenty in the world who will gladly ridicule and laugh at your faith. And you know… so what. They’ve been doing it since the beginning. Wish them a nice day and keep moving. As St. Josemaria Escriva says, “Don’t waste your time and your energy — which belong to God — throwing stones at the dogs that bark at you on your way. Ignore them.” (The Way) But also don’t do their job for them. Don’t undermine your own faith through self-condemnation and self-abuse. Instead, come before God’s throne of grace with boldness and confidence, come as His beloved children, and lay your heart before Him. It is His good pleasure to hear you.

Let us pray: “Loving and Merciful Father, we come before You knowing that You are ever present and attentive to the voice of our prayers. In the quiet of our hearts, we trust that You hear every petition, joy, and sorrow we lay before You. We place our anxieties and needs into Your compassionate hands, confident that Your steadfast love endures forever. Strengthen our faith, Lord, and grant us the grace to always accept Your holy will. Amen.”

Sermon: Trinity Sunday RCL A – “Fear or Desire”


A man has been visiting a therapist because he has been afraid of monsters living under his bed. He has been seeing this doctor for months. Every time he came in, the doctor would ask, “Have you made any progress?” Every time, the man would say, “No.” The man decided to see another doctor. When he went back to his other doctor and the doctor asked, “Have you made any progress?” he said, “Yes, I am feeling all better now.” The doctor asked, “What happened?” The man said, “I went to another doctor, and he cured me in one session.” The doctor asked, “What did he tell you?” The man said, “He just told me to cut the legs off my bed.”

My friend Stephen King, in his book Danse Macabre, discusses the three types of fear and later, in a social media post, sums them up. There is the Gross Out, the slimy stuff slapping you in the face; the Horror, things like giant spiders and the walking dead; and his favorite, the Terror. He describes it as, “when you come home and notice everything you own had been taken away and replaced by an exact substitute. It’s when the lights go out, and you feel something behind you, you hear it, you feel its breath against your ear, but when you turn around, there’s nothing there…” The monster under the bed is a terror.

For me, I can go with a little gross-out, but if it becomes too predictable or gratuitous, I’ll turn it off; however, it is wildly popular. Just consider the number of ways Jason killed off some witless teenager in the Friday the 13th movies. The Horror, I can go either way. For example, Sharknado should have won an Oscar, but when it gets into giant spiders or magical creatures, not so much. However, give me a good (or even bad) zombie movie, and I’ll buy tickets for everyone. Yet, the Terror, the slow burn, I’m sucked into every time. I’m more than happy to have a movie or book mess with my head. 

There are many who live for the good scare, but even for those who don’t, fear is an exceptional motivator. Those who have figured this out down to a science are the ones trying to sell us something.

Using Mr. King’s scale, the marketing people use the Gross Out by making us afraid of a fungus that can turn our toenails yellow. They appeal to the Horror by reminding us that each and every morning, our breath is so bad that we scare the cat. And they attempt to create the Terror by telling us that our current insurance company won’t really help us following the inevitable and ever-present disaster. Politicians are particularly adept at the Terror—a vote for me can save you from world domination under my opponent (and if they call or text me one more time, I’m going to pray they are visited in the middle of the night by some fantastic Gross Out Terror).

What is curious is that—based on how and why these fears are employed—they often motivate us to action. I’ve got a yellow toenail; I’d better tell my doctor I need that medicine. I may have cat-scaring breath; I’d better buy that mouthwash. I’m afraid of world domination; I’d better vote for that candidate. We do these things, yet they are all equivalent to saying, “I’m going to saw the legs off the bed because of the monster under there.”

Fear motivates, and if there is one organization that learned this very early on, it is the Church. We are very good at it. The book we are reading now for book club, The Sinner’s Guide, has a tremendous chapter on it. Speaking of those who will suffer the torments of damnation, the author writes, “What will they say when they will find themselves stretched upon a bed of fire, surrounded by sulfurous flames, not for one short summer night, but for all eternity?” “If one of these unhappy souls, says a Doctor of the Church, were to shed one tear every thousand years, and if these tears accumulated to such a flood as to inundate the world, he would still be as far as ever from the end of his sufferings. Eternity would only be at its beginning.” (p.76) That’s a good motivator right there. However, last week I was reading one of several short devotionals by St. Alphonsus Liguori, and he wrote, “Although no punishment awaited those who love Thee not, I would never leave off loving Thee, and I would do all I could to please Thee.” (The Love of Jesus Crucified, p.172) That really made me stop and think.

What if there were no punishment—no hell? Don’t misunderstand. There is a hell, and I firmly believe it will be far worse than anything we can imagine, but, momentarily setting Scripture and Doctrine aside, what if there wasn’t? What if it were like the monster under the bed, something we’re told as little kids to make us behave, but that everyone really knows isn’t real? What if you were free to choose God or not, with no painful consequences for not choosing?

If you choose God, you receive eternal life and all that Jesus offers. If you don’t, well, maybe you just blink out or something. No pain, no punishment, none of that. You are free to do whatever pleases you. If that were the case, would you still be here today? Would you still try to follow Jesus’ commandments? If that were the case, would your relationship with God mean anything to you? 

For some, the answer is, “Heck, no. I’m out of here.” For them, their relationship is based solely on fear. For that person, if there is nothing to fear, there is no reason to be here at all, because that relationship is master and slave, yet instead of God being the Master, fear is. Dispense with the fear, and the slave does whatever he or she wants. It is a purely transactional relationship—I’ll do what you say, and you keep me out of hell.

For others, when asked why they are here, they might answer, “I don’t know that I would be here, but I would certainly hope so. I want what Jesus offers.” This person has begun to understand that fear may have brought them here and into the relationship in the first place, but they’re beginning to sense that there is something more they are being drawn to. A shift has begun to take place, and that shift marks the beginning of transformation.

Finally, the third group answers in a way that brings us back to what Liguori said, “Although no punishment awaited those who love Thee not, I would never leave off loving Thee, and I would do all I could to please Thee.” For them, it is not about fear or even hope. It is a declarative statement that says, “I desire nothing but to be with my God, so if I have to renounce everything of this world and all it has to offer, I will do it. I will seek God alone.” This goes beyond transformation and marks the beginning of transfiguration—living into the fullness of the image of God within, the Image we were created in. As we read,

“God created humankind in His image,
in the image of God He created them;
male and female He created them.” (Genesis 1:27)

It is a desire to walk with God as Adam and Eve did in the beginning.

So, back to the original question: why are you here? Fear? Hope? Desire? For me, a truthful answer is: it depends on the day. Ask me today, and I will tell you that I am 98% here out of desire and 2% because, well… I am a priest. However, if you had asked me earlier in the week, when my stomach wasn’t behaving, my air conditioner hadn’t been working for over a week, I couldn’t sleep at night because it was hot, and the repair folks were being unresponsive… Let’s just say that it is a good thing I believe in hell, otherwise I would have called down the same Gross Out Terror on them that I want to visit the politicians.

I suspect the same is true for all of us. The prayer is that the trajectory always seeks the higher place, always desiring God above all else—diminishing fear, then transformation, and finally transfiguration. This is what we should desire because it is what God desires for us. Is that true?

Today is Trinity Sunday, the day we celebrate our Triune God—Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Speaking on behalf of the Trinity, Jesus said, “I no longer call you slaves… I call you friends.” (John 15:15) Jesus also said, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.” (John 14:23) Jesus desires that we be friends, and the Holy Trinity desires to take up residence within our souls. God calls each of us to desire Him as much as He desires us. If we can do so, only a fraction as much as He desires us, it is a very good beginning.

If you are here because you fear the alternative, you have begun. If you are here because you hope for Heaven, your hope will never be in vain. And if you are here because you desire God, fan the flames of that desire to an even greater degree.

Gregory of Nyssa wrote, “The one who climbs never stops going from beginning to beginning, through beginnings that have no end.” Regardless of where you are, never stop climbing and always increase your desire for a deeper relationship with God: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Let us pray: (a prayer of Saint Anselm) O Lord, my God, teach us to seek you, for we cannot seek you unless you teach us, or find you unless you show yourself to us. Let us seek you in our desire; let us desire you in our seeking. Let us find you by loving you; let us love you when we find you. Amen.

Sermon: Augustine of Canterbury


And did those feet in ancient time
Walk upon England’s mountains green?
And was the holy Lamb of God
On England’s pleasant pastures seen?
And did the Countenance Divine
Shine forth upon our clouded hills?

The hymn Jerusalem, taken from a poem by William Blake, alludes to a legend that tells how Joseph of Arimathea, a tin merchant and uncle of Jesus, once brought the boy Jesus to England on a trading journey, and suggests that Jesus once walked the shores of England.  

The Legend of Glastonbury goes on to describe how, after the death of Jesus, Joseph and some of the other disciples came to England.  It is said that upon arrival, Joseph planted his staff, which miraculously flowered and reportedly still does so each Christmas.  A sprig is taken to Buckingham Palace every year as a reminder of the miracle.  The church established under Joseph of Arimathea in Glastonbury is said to be the first church in England.

That may have been the beginning of the English Church, but its early history was quite rocky, and it wasn’t until the late 6th century that it began to experience more consistent growth.

In the year 596, Pope St. Gregory the Great sent Augustine, the near-sighted prior of an abbey, along with 30 other monks to England to convert the English to Christianity.  This small band of monks landed on the Isle of Thanet, located at the southeast corner of England, in the year 597.

The territory was ruled by Ethelbert, king of Kent, who was wary of these Christians, but because his wife was a Christian, he allowed the monks to stay. Eventually, Ethelbert would convert to Christianity, which encouraged his citizens to do the same. On a single day shortly after Ethelbert’s conversion and baptism, some 10,000 English were baptized in the River Swale by Augustine and his fellow monks. Not bad for a day’s work!

Augustine was consecrated as the first Archbishop of Canterbury and is known as the “Apostle to the English.” Archbishop Sarah Mullally, whom we pray for each week, is the 106th Archbishop of Canterbury.

In our Gospel reading today, Jesus saw Simon Peter and the others fishing. He said to them, “Throw your nets out into the deep water for a catch.” Simon Peter’s response was, “Look, we’re fishermen. We know what we’re doing, and we’ve been out here all night trying. They aren’t biting, but just to satisfy you…” “They caught so many fish that their nets were beginning to break. So they signaled their partners in the other boat to come and help them. And they came and filled both boats, so that they began to sink.”

That event seems to be very accurate in describing the early history of the English Church.  Casting and casting – 600 years of casting – then finally bringing in the catch when Augustine and his monks arrived.  One of the many lessons in studying the life of Augustine and this era of English church history is persistence in faith.  Recognizing that the goal is worth reaching, no matter the setbacks and hardships.  This is true in the greater scheme of things and in our own lives.

Podcast Episode: Sermon: Pentecost RCL A – “The Gift”

Pip: There are days when only a strong moral principle stands between you and knocking someone’s hat off in the street. Fr. John opens with Melville, and somehow ends up at the Holy Trinity.

Mara: This episode follows that journey — from Moby Dick to Pentecost, from the veil between Heaven and Earth to what the Holy Spirit actually does inside a human soul. Let’s start with the gift itself.

Sermon: Pentecost and the Gift of the Holy Spirit

Mara: The central question here is one most people quietly carry: if the Kingdom of Heaven is real but unreachable, how do we actually touch it? That’s the tension this sermon sets out to resolve.

Pip: The setup is a Venn diagram — God and the Kingdom in one circle, us in the other — and the sermon asks what lives in the overlap. The anchor quote comes from Richard of St. Victor’s De Trinitate: “Love not only tends to another person, but also tends to sharing love. When two persons mutually love each other, they can love and be loved and communicate their riches, but they cannot share their love. For that, still another person is required, a companion of love. Thus, love can be realized by a duality of persons, but it can only be completed by a trinity of persons.”

Mara: So the Trinity isn’t an abstract theological puzzle — it’s the structural requirement for love to be complete. The Father and Son need the Spirit the way a shared joy needs someone to share it with.

Pip: And that architecture has a practical consequence. God didn’t create us because He needed a hobby. The sermon is clear: He created us to love us with the same love that moves within the Trinity, which means a conduit had to be built — something that runs both directions, Heaven to Earth and back.

Mara: That conduit arrives in two steps. First, the Son. Then, as the Eucharistic Prayer puts it, “he sent the Holy Spirit, his own first gift for those who believe, to complete his work in the world, and to bring to fulfillment the sanctification of all.”

Pip: The phrase “first gift” does a lot of work there. Not a consolation prize for the ascension — the intended completion of it.

Mara: Saint Cyril of Alexandria makes that explicit: the Spirit doesn’t substitute for Christ’s presence, it is his presence, dwelling inwardly where the incarnate Christ could only stand alongside. The sermon calls this ongoing — not a single Pentecost flame but a continuous exchange between the soul and God.

Pip: Which loops back to Melville. The Holy Spirit is, among its many offices, what keeps a person from methodically knocking people’s hats off. Useful work.

Mara: The sermon closes on Romans 8 — nothing in creation can separate us from the love of God — and frames Pentecost not as anniversary but as present tense. That inward, unbreakable connection is the gift being celebrated.

Pip: And if the Spirit is the conduit that holds Heaven and Earth together, the next question is what that looks like when we try to live it outward.


Mara: The thread running through all of this is proximity — the Kingdom closer than it looks, the Spirit already inside the veil.

Pip: The soul of God’s children, each one of us, is the address where the gift, the Holy Spirit, gets delivered.