
Trying something new with this audio version of the sermon delivered live. If you listen, would love to know what you think. Thank.
The Captain of a ship reports: When I first went to sea, I was a Third Mate. I knew everything. After sailing for a few years and earning my Second Mate license, I realized I had a lot to learn. A few years later, I became a Chief Mate. It became apparent that there was much I still didnโt know. After years of sailing, I became the Captain of my own ship. Reality set in; I didnโt have a clue what I was doing. Itโs ok. I have a third mate who knows everything.
Author Charles Bukowski said, โThe problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence.โ That is a true statement. However, intelligent people sometimes also believe they are truly unqualified for the position they have been entrusted with. They consider themselves to be frauds. This is known as imposter syndrome, which can be broadly defined as โthe tendency to favour a narrative that โyou’re not good enoughโ, or doubting your own capabilities, while fearing exposure of being a fraud.โ (Source)
I donโt know how widespread such a problem is, but I do know that inside the walls of the churchโnot just oursโit is likely widespread.
Think about your experience here. You come through the doors, and the floors are clean. Heck, Chuck makes them shine (thank you, Chuck). Thereโs the smell of incense in the air. It’s comfortable, and weโll even give you a cushion if your backside is a bit thin and doesnโt provide enough padding. When we look at the images of Jesus in the stained-glass windows, including those of the crucifixion, I love them, but theyโre so cleaned up. Jesus doesnโt look like Heโs been beaten or flogged. Thereโs no dirt. Thereโs no blood. All that has been cleaned up. When we come forward to receive the Eucharist, we receive the breadโitโs a perfectly round, bleached wafer. It, too, has been cleaned up from what bread normally looks like. (Please donโt misunderstand what Iโm saying. I would not change any of this. I believe that it is the way things are supposed to be. Iโm just making observations here to make a point.) In addition, I wear some of the finest vestments available; our choir sings beautifully, accompanied by the organist and the lovely instrument he plays. Our entire experience of walking into this building is one of entering a well-ordered, clean place. Thatโs just elements of the space and the liturgy. What about the people?
Folks, you are marvelous, darling! Gorgeous. Handsome. It’s like walking into Garrison Keillorโs Lake Wobegon, โwhere all the women are strong, all the men are good-looking, and all the children are above average.โ Then thereโs you.
You look around you. You see the beauty of the place and all that takes place. You see folks all nicely scrubbed, sitting in their pews. And you think of yourself, and that imposter syndrome kicks in hard. You believe, โIโm not good enough,โ โIf they knew what I was like on the inside, they wouldnโt let me through the doors,โ โThis place and these people are all cleaned up, but Iโve been wandering through the mud of this world, and I track it around everywhere I go.โ Not only do we see ourselves in such a poor light, but we also come to firmly believe that Jesus sees us the same way.
We think of JesusโHeโs nice and clean and shiny. Heโs up there, looking down on my muddy self, and Heโs disgusted by what He sees. How can He stand me? As a Christian, I am a fraud.
Today, we celebrate the Baptism of Our Lord. It occurs every year on the first Sunday after the Epiphany. It is the day when Jesus comes to the forerunner, John the Baptist, to be baptized in the Jordan River. The Church teaches us that through this one act, Jesus accomplished so many things. Primarily, it inaugurated Christโs ministry, sanctified the waters so that all who enter the waters of baptism might be cleansed, and revealed the nature of the Holy Trinity. These things are good to know, but Iโm thinking today about the physical event of that baptism.
When I was younger, growing up in Louisiana, I always thought of the Jordan River, where Jesus was baptized, as being about the size of the Mississippi or the Red. However, it is quite different. At its widest, the Jordan is only 80 to 100 feet wide. With a good arm, it would be easy enough to throw a rock across.
The environmental conditions in Israel are very arid and desert-like, except around the Jordan. There is fertile ground, and along the banks grow reeds and other water plants. It is also quite muddy.
If you think about the people coming to be baptized by John along the banks of the river, you can imagine it was a pretty trampled, sloppy place. Nothing pristine about it. Walking down to John, youโll have to traipse through that mud. Going into the river, youโll be washed cleanโboth spiritually and physically. However, when you come back out again, youโll be spiritually clean, but physicallyโฆ there you are in the mud again. The same was true for Jesus. When He came out of those waters, He didnโt miraculously glide across the mud and mire. No. He walked through it.
I thought of that image as I considered us here today. We come into this place and look around. It is clean and pristine. All these people are clean, with no blemishes or dirt on them (trust me, that is not the case. Oy!) Everything here is so well ordered, except for me. Iโve traipsed through the mud of this world, and I track it everywhere I go. How can Jesus stand me? But what we forget is that Jesus does not avoid the messy and dirty places. Jesus, in His humanity and divinity, choseโฆ chose to walk through the mud of this world in order to find and save us, so that we might be with Him where He is.
St. Paul writes to the Philippians, โChrist Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross.โ (Philippians 2:6-8)
Jesus humbled Himself to walk through the mud with us so that, in the end, He might raise us to new life through our own baptism. As Paul said to the Romans, โDo you not know that all of us who have been baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.โ (Romans 6:3-4)
Youโve walked through the mud of this world. Jesus gave up the very throne room of Our God so that he might walk through that mud to find you.
The psychoanalyst Carl Jung wrote, โModern man can’t see God because he doesn’t look low enough.โ
We donโt believe Jesus can tolerate our messiness. We look up and around us. We look for Him in the Heavens and high on the altar, all clean and shiny. He is there, but perhaps more importantly, He is down here with us.
King David wrote,
โI waited patiently for the Lord;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
and put their trust in him.โ
(Psalm 40:1-3 NIV)
Through your baptism, Jesus lifted you out of the slimy pit and out of the mud and mire. He gave you a firm place to stand. He made you worthy of the promises of Heaven. If along the way you find yourself traipsing through some mudโฆ
Remember the Last Supper, when Jesus washed the disciples’ feet and when He came to Peter. Peter said that Jesus would never wash his feet. What was Jesusโ response? โโIf I do not wash you, you have no share with me.โ Simon Peter said to him, โLord, not my feet only but also my hands and my head!โ Jesus said to him, โThe one who has bathed does not need to wash, except for his feet, but is completely clean. And you are clean.โโ (John 13:8b-11)
When you come into this place, you are not an imposter. You are not a fraud. If you have walked through some muddy places, you need to wash your feet in the sacraments of Confession and the Eucharist, but you are clean. You are worthy. You are one whom Jesus loves. You are one He has gone to the furthest reaches to find. You are Godโs child.
Let us pray: By Godโs gift, through water and the Holy Spirit, we are reborn to everlasting life. In Godโs goodness, may He continue to pour out His blessings upon us, His sons and daughters. May He make us always, wherever we may be, faithful members of His holy people. May He send His peace upon all who are gathered here, in Christ our Lord. Amen.








